So i am shocked that some people have read and responded to this. I do appreciate all the advice and offers and if this was a perfect world know that I would so be on board for all of it. Tonight is good just sitting out side smoking which reminds me that I am running low and gotta call my guy to pick up more. For the record I do like to be fucked in the ass but I have never been with a man. Don't get me wrong I do love my wife and no I don't think she has a guy on the side.  Hell she wants me to find a girlfriend to annoy instead of her most of the time. It's just her moods change so fast. It's just tough with all that is going on in our lives right now. If you do read this stuff (thanks to those who do) feel free to ask me stuff. I am always down for a conversation anyway 

 thanks a ton

nameless