It has been sometime since I wrote anything in this blog.  I don't know who reads them if anyone.  But, I hope at least someone can relate to those things that I have never really told anyone.  I guess you can say this is me peaking my head out the closet.  Idk.

What I do know is that I am very submissive, I am completely powerless over women's feet, I would love to be deflowered by a transgender woman with a huge cock, and in a very savage way, I would love it if the overpowering scent of women's feet were plastered all over my face so that I can breathe in the goddess scent all the time, never forgetting that I am her foot slave.  I would love to see another man with a cock that is so much bigger than mine, pleasuring my wife in unimaginable ways then being allowed to lick and suck up all the cum off her pussy and his beautiful cock.  The thought of his ball sweat being rubbed deep into the pores of my skin as he does such wonderful things to her pussy just drives me insane thinking about how good that would make me feel.  I would love to feel the pain of my face and my self respect being crushed under the soft, peach colored heels of a perfect goddess.  

I want to relive the experience I had with a girlfriend from a long time ago who used to smother me with her big beautiful, soft tits, completely incapacitated by her feminine power and how I almost passed out as I came inside her because it felt so good.  I liked her, her name was Shannon and I ha e never been with anyone since who could suck a cock as good as she did.  I never lasted more than 2 minutes with her and I doubt most guys can.  She really had a special gift for that, she knew how to make you feel good in ways you never thought possible.  On top of that, I have never had the experience of smelling feet better than hers did and they were so soft, nice long toes that tasted so sweet and sized 11 to cover my entire face.  My thing with her didn't last long enough.  She went to college in one state, I went to college over 1000 miles away and that was the end of it.  This was 23 years ago and I still think about her and how good she made me feel.  I can only imagine all the wonderful things she is doing to the guy she is married to today.  If she ever came back, I will always be ready to do our thing again even if I am married.  Maybe if I am lucky my wife will suck my cock after I squirt all of my cum, and drain my balls deep inside Shannon's gushing wet pussy like we used to do all the time so she can finally get to taste how good Shannon's pussy is and be her bitch without ever knowing it.   Better yet, maybe she will love Shannon's taste so much that the both of them will get together and eventually fall asleep, tight fuck knots in their hair on a bed soaked in sweat and pussy with the strong scent of Shannon's feet all over my wife's face.  Maybe one day all three of us will get together, but I don't know if I will survive that or if I would ever be the same again.  I just know that there is so much about me that needs to come out.  Much of it has never been released.  But, I'm at the point now that if the chance occurs, I could never say no but so what, I probably won't last long anyways.  It will take a lot of this and a lot of time unless I am past the point of no return and am truly a hopeless addict to submissive sex.  But, if that is true, then I suppose that isn't such a bad thing.  

So much love to all of you who read this, please stay healthy and safe, you are too beautiful of a human being to leave this world too soon.  *Hugz and Kisses*