It's real.  It's inside of me.  The craving to be controlled, trained, seduced to obey.  I don't pretend to be a man anymore.  My sex life consists of worshipping my Wife's feet; usually cumming as I imagine myself being fucked in the ass while being slowly induced into hypnosis.  

To weak to resist, I live for those moments when my eyes go suddenly blank, and I feel my body stiffen in compliance with some trigger.  Arousal is a relentless weapon.  I have been broken, and will obey any compulsion that serves to Deepen my feminization.  Dressing, getting high, and watching hypno porn are utterly transformative.  Within minutes I am cross-eyed, drooling and blank, literally stunned into obedience.  Periodically, I simply freeze, feeling my insides effervesce as submissive cravings run amok through my brain.  I am left feeling blissfully empty and compliant.  And horny.  So horny.

Deeper.  Must go deeper.

/H