I just wanted to share some of my experiences as a whiteboi.

 

Believe it or not, i was a good kid, until i discovered masturbation. That spoiled me. But a little before i discovered masturbation, i started having strong fantasies about being kidnapped by strong amazon women. I used to play getting nude and imagining that scenario, my very little cock at the time got so hard and for so long i started to drip precum. I loved to think that amazon women wanted that drops. I still didn't masturbate at all, i just kept my cock hard. About that femdom fantasies, i don't know where i developed them, because at that age even the word femdom was unknown to me, the same as porn.

 

After a few weeks i discovered masturbation. That was the beginning of my demise.I got hooked at once. At the time i didn't know what i was doing i thought it was something unique. Of course later i knew the truth. Anyway, as i told you i got really into it, i rushed home from school to lock myself in the bathroom to jerk off many times. At that age i recovered pretty quickly and didn't know edging so i cummed many times in short jerk off sessions.pretty close one to another.

Later i did the click between women and masturbation. I started masturbating to lingerie and swimsuit catalogs. Immediately i noticed when i jerked off watching women it felt more intense and i got stronger orgasms. It made my masturbation addiction deeper. I spent more time locked in the bathroom admiring women. It's important to say all of this happened before the Internet Era, kids nowadays have easier time accessing to porn discovering their tastes and fetishes. At the time there were even porn theaters in the city.

About the theaters i loved jerking off to the movies sections of the newspapers sometimes they put advertising to XXX rated movies showing censored pictures of nude women, but at least i could see part of their lovely anatomy.

At 14 the more adventurous guys at school started dating girls. I was (am) too shy girls so i preferred to stay away and kept going with my masturbation.

Besides i had lots of jerk off action, specially on weekends (later known as "hand dates"

But at 15 something happened that changed the way i view the world, forever!! I got an erotic magazine. For the first time i could see, watch, admire, stare full nude women, their pussies, nipples, hips, legs all at once. Until then i only had glimpses of the nipples and some camel toe. I still remember the moment, it was at my grandmother house, it was among useless things no one dare to throw to the garbage and surely it was a mag from my uncle. I jerked off at the moment, i felt so aroused!! and i felt the sexual power women have over guys like me. It was totally different from my experiences with the catalogs and newspapers. I felt owned by those girls. I was the little masturbator jerking off with my tongue out, literally drooling watching the wonderful bodies. Women never do that for men (at least for whites).

As you can see i had a bit of submissive, but the photos of the nude women push me farther into that way. I've never been into pain, but humiliation is something that started to grow in my mind. It helped to push even more the fact that girls at school got far better grades that the boys. I was the best of the guys (on grades only) but i was far far behind the girls. So i started to see women as more self controlled, smarter, cleaner, better than the boys. I think society is regarding women that way too.

I kept the magazine for about a week, hidden under my bed. I got lots of fun thanks to it. I remember there was a series of pictures were a small toy man landed on a gorgeous black woman, It was so erotic. Unfortunately, my mom found the mag and probably destroyed it. It was sad to go back to lingerie catalogs, i was hooked on full nude women, so i jerked off my way to get more erotic and porn magazines.