I came from a family straight family value, no porn, no boyfriend, no sex, as I am already moving out of my parent house, I feel like there is no longer the reason to keep those promise, it about time to be myself, I got a plan to lost my virginity before 19 years old, but you know with the current situation, I can't really do anything, as 19 birthday came and gone, I feel a bit lost TBH.
But I remember something, or I should say someone.
There is a tall, thin black man living alone far away from my campus, I think he is at his mid 50, as old as my da.
Even though he very far from where I live and study, I often walk over there just because I wanted to see him, look at him sitting outside his house, I feel excited just to fantasize about him. I didn't have any idea to reach out to him, but now, maybe I have an excuse.
I am planning on knocking his door next time I go out to buy food, saying that I am running out of supply, and will do anything for him.
I am still building up my courage to walk over there and ring that bell, it sounds not very safe, I know, and not even a responsible action for nowadays situation, but I am really excited by this idea, I can't shake it off my head...  Should I go for it?