so, lately, i have been coming incredibly to the thought, the desire, the need to be completely limp and submissive. wrecking myself, so to speak.

I have been indulging in lace panties with my little self tucked back, all the dangly bits pushed away. then I get out my wand ;) and rub it along the front and bottom of my panties, which.. restrict... me. First my clit starts to get tense, and I get wanty, and drippy, then... i soften again, and drip more freely ;). I push, or grind, harder.. harder, now mostly limp and delicate, chasing after that cum that I know is there. Usually thinking nastier and nastier thoughts, biting my limp and whispering dirty horrible things.. until it washes over me, and a make a mess of myself.

Then, I slip my fingers in my panties, use the wetness as lube, and finger myself; sometimes pushing my palm hard against my clit and savoring the wet squelch, imagining what my lover would look like.. then grabbing a toy and stuffing it roughly into myself, and putting the wand back to work. It always takes lkonger the second time, and I have to be harder, more preassure and even pain as I chase that second cum like the girl that I wish I was, feeling myself ache around the toy inside.

 As I grunt and whimper, beg to be fucked, gyrate my hips against my wand, my thoughts always got back to my wet, limp little clitty. About how sexy it would be, to never be hard again, to surrender 'it' in the name of being a better, more femme fuck toy to be fucked and filled with cum and discarded, until he needed to empty himself again. Then, I come like I'm having a seizure, tripling the mess from before and sometimes crying.

Had to share somewhere, it is almost consuming me. If you came reading this (like i did writing it), let me know? share a naughty pic with me? tell me your fantasy? send me a nasty and degrading message? all of the above? fuck, I feel like such a whore right now, and I adore it. ;)