I've been locked in chastity on and off and on and off.........

Everytime I lock myself up, I tell myself that "This time, it's for real", and a couple of days later I take it off and whack away.

It feels so good, but then immediately I feel bad. And the cycle starts all over again.

I recently been watching some stalkerbee videos on Pornhub, and they help, a bit. But the cycle continues.

I'm thinking of buying a real, wrap around chastity belt. I wonder of that would help? I don't know.

The cravings of being a servile, orgasm denied slave have increased more and more the last few months. I lay awake at nights, a lot, and think of suffering and denial just for the sadistic pleasures of someone. Knowing that I am forbidden from pleasure myself. I do have some experiance serving, and suffering, and I miss it. 

It feels so right, to reach down and grab my locked steel cage and not being able to feel anything, wishing that it belonged to someone else, and I would willingly give up that control.