Age: Early 50's

Age I began crossdressing: Early Teens

Why: I'd always looked at girls and liked their pretty clothes then my brother's teenage girlfriend moved into our house. She was gorgeous (as were her sisters) and I now had access to a girls wardrobe and after trying on her panties it became my obsession.

Why wasn't it a phase:In 1984 I bought the very first Playboy Book of Lingerie - I was 16. It was over 100 pages of the most beautiful women wearing sexy lingerie and i was hooked. I flipped every page dreaming of being those goddesses and wearing those clothes. Those newstandspecials came out monthly and I collected every one untilthe late 1990's. I didn't need a girlfriend or real sex I went through the looking glass and that was my new normal.

Was I gay: No. There were girls who I wished to go out with and I never gave boys a thought. I did however race home everyday to crossdress while I had the house to myself.

Have I ever had a gay experience: No. Until 12 months ago I'd never jerked off to a cock.

How did you start jerking to cocks: I was downloading some pics and it had some shemales in it. Most were guys with bad boob jobs and makeup but some were unbelievably beautiful and feminine. The only thing was they hard hard cocks. I downloaded them and jerked off but quickly felt 'wrong' and deleted them. Then I downloaded them again and actually posted on imagefap and stated I liked cock then deleted that account. I tried again and am comfortable with the fact that this is the new me.

How often do you have sex: It would be just over twenty years ago. She was the most beautiful girl I've ever slept with. We were friends at school and we met years later. We went out a few times then one nite tried a romantic encounter. I couldn't get it up that nite and she said that OK. We tried two more times with the same outcome.As she was kicking me out she said "I think you're gay'. I wish she could see my profile!

So what do you do for relief: I've always been a chronic masterbator and the rise of the internet has meant I have constant access to jerk off material. These days I'm retired so I spend every day collecting, posting and jerking to my version of porn. I love to edge and try to go a week at a time stroking rubbing my dick for many hours a day. My dick is very small and after many days of playing with it is a tiny useless appendage.

Dream day: Well until recently my dream day was going to see my 21 yo neice and spending the day with her either crossdressing with her and her younger sister and friends.

Dream day now: My neice just married a black guy. I can't stop thinking about the big cock (I imagine) is swinging between his legs. I dream of talking to her (whilst wearing girly clothes) about his dick and what it's like to suck and fuck something that big and she saying do you want to find out.

Will I ever act on my feelings and suck a cock: I don't believe so. If I ever found a shemale that looked really convincing to me then yeah.

Favorite movie quote: "If only I was twenty years younger.....and a woman!'   The Naked Gun

Favorite Internet Model: Brittany-Marie from Brittany Unleashed. I started jerking off to her when she was a teen model and now she makes videos belittling losers like me. She is my dream Misstress.

Favorite Female Celebrity: Showing my age but I jerk constantly to Leah Remini from the "King of Queens'.  Her attitude is so no-nonsense I would love to have her boss me around!

Any other questions feel free to message me.