So the way I thought this all works is becoming more problematic by the day.

I thought gay guys were attracted to guys, and  the majority  seem to be versatile or bottoms. Lots of guys who just want to suck cock, too. I don't  think they have much interest in transgurls.

And I figured that there were a lot of horny guys walking around , most of them "straight", who would fuck anything that walks and spreads and looks good enough.

So I combined my love of crossdressing with my desire to be a hot little slut that guys would want to  have wrapped around their cock.

The result? There is one segment of CD/ trans admirers who get off on acting "dominant", often meaning they are just looking for people willing to be bullied and exploited.

 And most of the other admirers are looking for cock, but can reconcile the taboo in their mind if it the cock is attached to a reasonably  good looking gurl. 

I have no problem with what you want, or what you want to give up... that's all up to you. But figuring out how to attract and keep a man's  interest is the problem for me. 

 A lot of the transgurl  image is centered around the "make me a sissy with a limp little clitty" perspective. "Give me that BBC until it hurts" kind of vibe. Are these the gurls that really put out? I read a lot of shit that seems more like pure fantasy.. Same for the tough-talking "dominant" guys.

 I had one guy who wanted to grunt, "Lick me ass, bitch" while I  tongued him as he jerked off. Dominant? I call that a rude pillow princess.

And another guy started out as a wonderful lover, although his main focus was to have his ego stroked by gurls who would worship him and his BBC.

In time, he started to use it as a weapon. I think that's  the whole "New World  Order"  angle, which is just more bullshit to me.. I just want a good fucking from a nice cock, the color makes no difference so long as I am not the one making it brown.

My candy is quite fine: I don't  have a desire to squish it or make it tiny,  but is the last thing on my mind while I am with a man. I want to be his woman, be fucked like one, and enjoy that totally unique stimulation from feeling him in my mouth, in my pussy, all over me.

Most are left unsatisfied when they can't keep me hard or make me shoot...those are the guys who really came for the cock, not the gurl. They also are not the type to fuck me as long and hard as I need it, or have the tools to get the job done anyway.

So this is a "me" problem. I wonder how many people are facing the same conundrum. What's your perspective?

Hugs, Torrey