I think of all the failures in my kink life that I've had, and I've had a few.

For many, many years I've been driven by my own selfish fetish's and needs. It's always been about me, and me only. It was only a couple of very short years ago that I realized that being truly submissive I had to re-think and re-wire my thought process.

I've been obsessing at times about the words - Discipline, Obedience, and Service and what they mean. For me to truly "let go" of myself, I need to really learn what those words and life changes mean.