Part I

As a teenager my friend shared with me a pornographic magazine. Inside of it was an advertisement with an image of a man dressed as a woman with "her" penis dangling out of "her" panties. The idea of a engaging in a sexual experience with a feminine man was instantly arousing and I can still clearly picture this image in my head.

From that point on I began to fantasize about what it would be like to sleep with such a human as the notion of being trans or even just being a person who casually crossdressed was completely foreign to me before then.

Part II

A friend of a friend showed up at a social gathering and she was like a shining beacon immediately. I gazed at her, as did several others. We didn't stare for any other reason than her unique traits.

She was very tall, wore a ton of makeup, and didn't seem completely natural.

She wasn't natural, of course. This friend of a friend was crossdressing OR trans, i'm not sure which.

Some other guys at this gathering derided this person. Though she made no advances, offered to suck no dick, never pretended to be a "woman" she became a target. Surely, they must have thought, she must be looking to trick someone. I stayed quiet.

In my head, thoughts were going wild.... I wanted to go ask her out. I wondered if she was into guys. What would it be like to have her mouth on my cock? Would she let me fuck her? I was thoroughly smitten.

She was overtly sexual. I overheard her mention her ability to take an entire beer bottle up her asshole no problem. I was glad a table hid my hard dick. If I wasn't so overwhelmed by the idea that I'd be shamed if I sought her out, called gay if I dated her, called homo if fucked her, I would've done something about it. I mean, my cock was rock hard and I wish i could've gone over to her and asked if she wanted to fuck me right then and there in front of everyone. Fuck the homophobes.

To this day I regret not listening to my inner self and realizing my personal willingness to explore sexual relations with women, tgirls, and men alike.