Messenging "footsteps_ch" on ImageFap

First of all I must openly state - I'm not just here (at Image Fap) just to be finding stimulation for masturbation. I rarely masturbate to the (wonderful) many attractions and sexual practices of others. I'm here to mirror my self, to explore, to find, and to hopefully learn sexual behavioral practices that develop and enhance my real inner sexuality.

SO, "footsteps_ch" replied to one of my pictures of my little penis in my own gallery > "well, that is really a little cock of a little boy".

Yes it really is "a little cock of a little boy".

Do you like it?

I'd love to be my little boy self again.

When I was a little boy, and when I was a teenager, and when I was in my early 20s, I had several chances to enrich my various Homosexual attractions - and offerings from other people to particpate homosexually with them, and more eventually my Bisexual attractions too - yet I did not follow my instincts.

Although I had some strong hints, I also failed to explore my inclination to wonder about and prefer that I would have liked to be a little girl instead of a little boy, to be a pubescent girl instead of a pubescent boy, to be a young woman instead of a young man. I specifically dreamt of and fantacized about this in my late teen-age years... and at various other times in my life, eventually (now) solidly fixed into my being.

It seems that I was unable to follow my true nature due to living in a world of family disaster - and that I did not follow repeated urges to develop my inclinations toward being in close relations with other little boys, then with other teenage guys, then with other young men.

I realize now that all of these conditions contribute quite vividly to my attractions of being developed as a sissy and of being dominated by the growing evolution of femdom management - of so many of us lost and wandering (pathetic) beta males.

I do, now, understand and confirm that my true nature was toward being a girl, being a woman, AND having BOTH (alpha) women and men manage my needs effectively by Domination - by presenting my Submissive self to their care and their guidance - for their enrichment of my character and of my true sexual development and behavior.

It's an obvious fact that, I prefer a mix of sexual influences, that as a mainline priority I'm more attracted to penises than I am attracted to vaginas.

I really, really wish that I had a vagina instead of a penis, because then I would have THREE holes for men to put their penises in: into my Mouth and into my Anus AND into my Vagina - and that includes more than one at a time and all at one time, of course.

Since I realize now how I have not managed my sexuality according to my true nature, I have also come to be attracted to a whole range of additional attractions and fetishes, toward deeper sexual perversion and toward deviant sexual behavior. I actually consider it a privilege and a benefit to be sort of twisted and somewhat bizarre about it - even to make it public - to champion myself as the asexual Queer, cock-sucking wanna-be, that I am.

I mentioned in another Message to you recently how much I enjoy and identify with those three Favorites of your's: "My Early Years", "Raised To Be A Sissy" and "Happy Days" ... to which you responded:

"I am not surprised that you like those 3 favorites because that's how a sissy should be raised."

"Your mom should have done it this way."

"It is also not a surprise to me that you have favorites of young little cocks and cunts."

"Of course you would like them even much younger."

... and that many of my Favorites pictures are of young penises and young vaginas - which is correct.

I especially like pictures of men and boys with small penises - like mine.
I especially like pictures of slender and skinny and flat-chested girls and women.

So there's a cross-over connection point for me there - a rather hazy distinction between boys and girls - including that I very much like shemales. I'm was actually just amazed and delighted to become acquainted with shemales and trannies - and then onward with sissy men and sissy boys - and that Many people in our world live in this special mixture of sexuality.

The part of your statement, "you would like them even much younger" is correct.

Since all of my source sexual experience was when I was a little boy, that is what I relate to the most ... experiences of nudity with boy childrem and girl children when I was 5 to 17 years old - those are my Favorite body-awareness times - and I find it perfectly natural, healthy and "normal" to be so-oriented.

As long as no one is violating our protective laws, or health & safety, it's not threatening or traumatizing or unsafe for anyone involved, as long as no one feels intruded upon or frightened, I feel pretty all-around "human" about it.

After all, we all have human bodies - we all pretty much know what human bodies look like and feel like. We interact with each others' bodies. We enjoy, appreciate, marvel at and commit ourselves to being intiately involved with our bodies and with each other's bodies - children included. That's how we learn it too, by the examples that are set for us by our families and our friends.

So it goes.

I like naked children in Family Nudism pictures. It's so perfectly natural that children are not instinctively stigmatized against nudity - not until we are taught that. It's safer and more socially respectful to hide our bodies, yet my underlying innocense and natural inclination is to both appreciate and accept seeing naked children. Anyone who follows "family nudism" online will quickly see that many people commonly go to nudist/nudism camps, beaches and vacation places, where everyone is naked and participating in open, regular social gatherings without clothing, which is non-threatening and widely acceptable - just like native cultures.

Frankly, I would very much rather live in or near such communities. I would like to actully live in such a "village" so to speak ... a village of Queers.

Because I AM a - Queer, cock-sucking sissy-faggot wanna-be. And, I eagerly and specially desire to find perhaps, a bisexual Dominant couple, to be their Submissive sissy-boy child. Especially when there is opportunity to associate with others - even publicly - to share and openly demonstrate our muli-sexual attractions, fetishes, perversion and deviance ... a "Village of Queers" as I call us and Love us.

So,

Thank you for showing an interest in my sexuality.

Thank you for helping me to explore and express my true self.

Love, Robin