(This is really from a couple of years ago.  I found it in a folder with some diaper pictures) 

 

Well, tonight for the first time in a long time, things came together to let me diaper myself.  I am wearing doubled Depends, one layer of plastic pants and pink floral print jammies

I inserted a glycerine suppository in my sissy bottom, then followed it with Dulcolax.  Glycerine doesn't work well on me.  Dulcolax does.  Maybe the combination will give me a bit more urgency and loss of control when the time comes.

That is one thing I crave.  The loss of control.

that's right, little sissy baby...you are going to make poopies in your diaper tonight.  There's no choice about it.  It will happen.  The suppositories are inserted

I just went into the bathroom...not to use it, I wanted something.  I can feel that my bladder is pretty full.  I didn't quite wet my diaper that time.  But...maybe next time.

In addition, I feel the duloclax working it's way thru me.  Starting to get the first tinges of cramps.  Feeling the quivering of my sissy hole as it waits to release.

I just stood up again to get something.  I can really feel the cramps now.  Still feel like a full bladder, poured myself another drink

I finally remembered to get my binky and put it in my mouth.  It is tied in my mouth with a stretchy shoelace.  A trick I learned from Mommy S.  Thank you so much!

OH, it snuck up on me!  I just messed in my diapers!

Of course, that's just the first little one.  There will me more.

I must resist the urge to clean up prematurely.  Otherwise, I wont finish,  Then I will have to be running to the bathroom without a diaper for the rest of the night.

Oh my.  I tried to hold it.  But that didn't work...I just filled my diaper with mess.  It was extraordinary!  I had orgasm after orgasm.  The sissy kind, not the boy kind.  Though that almost happened too.

Wow...it took a long time to come down from that.

So here I sit in my messy diaper.  I am watching a diapered daniella enema movie.  Her diaper is already soaked when she takes an enema.

It doesn't really show her releasing it.

I have chatted with a few people.  I messed a little bit once more while chatting.  And another sissy orgasm.

After all the fun messing, I decided to give my self a piss enema.  That does mean I will wet my diaper less.  But, at least I was able to experience having piss in my sissy bottom.  I was going to pour the wee from a bottle into a funnel.  But I had trouble getting the spout in.  I opted for the reliable red enema bag.  Even then, I had trouble making the wee flow into me.  It wasn't nearly a full bag, but it just didn't want to flow.  kinks in the tube I think.

But, I did get most of the wee in.  I immediately pulled up my already wet and messy diaper.  I tried to hold it, really I did.  But I expelled my piss enema almost immediately.  I tried to slow it down, because I know the back of my diaper is really messy.  I only partially succeeded.  I barely kept enough control to keep it from overflowing.

Wonder of wonders my diapers managed to hold the enema.  Without any leaks so far.  But now I am wetting my diaper.  Trying to hold it to a slow stream.  My body is screaming to just flood.  But, I know if I do I will leak incredibly.