I like to pull the skin of the shaft of my smallish cock over my head to with my ballspushed up against my cock from pulling my boxers and shorts up and stroking with either my index and thumb or index, thumb and middle finger while trying to push the blood in my penis back into my body. When using the thumb, index and middle fingers, I place the thumb on top so the index and middles fingers aren't touching the underside of my prick so as to try and reduce the pleasure. It can be very difficult for me to get the kind of ruined orgasm which I have had several times, but it tkes hours to do for me. When edging while doing this I will switch to using the index finger and middle fingers without the thumb with my fingers pointed downward with lube which I do when I am feeling too much pleasure while pushing my penis downward. I've been able to cum doing this but it takes a long time and afterwards I feel very depleted, ashamed and denied. Usually it's hard for me to get this kind of orgasm which is very denied. It can also be done with the fingers facing downward between the thumb and index finger while pushing downward. In this particular case the more lube the less pleasure. The less lube the more pleasure but the more damage to the cock skin being rubbed raw.

As I first wrote. sometimes I like to use my shaft skin as if I had foreskin and pull it over the head of my cock and try to nub the head of my cock pushing the blood back into my body. Sometimes I like to pull my cock out when it is as flacid as I can get it and wrap my index and thumb around as well and nub my penis into premature ejaculation while flacid and or slightly erect state in the super tight squeeze job I give myself and set my self a time limit which is usually between 20 seconds to a minute. It has been difficult to find good captions that work for premature ejaculation as far as being very specific I mean. I don't need specific captions. I just mean in relationship to what I have done. Just looking at Big Cocks and of coarse too many average cocks puts me in my place as I imagine my cock shrinking from this. I've been able to do this version of masturbation to the point where it felt like I was not using it and losing it. If I don't cum within the first minute or less I wait till my cock is small and soft. It helps to suck my cock into my fat pubes by pulling my boxers and shorts upward with my balls pushing against my smallish cock and bending my legs and hips inward.

When nubbing I also like to hold the OK grip with the foreskin while using the other hand to pinch my prick into being as small as I can get it. I ave also used the thumb and index finger as stated before where I push downward while trying to hold pressure between my index finger and thumb both pushing blood inward and pulling the shaft skin toward my head when rubbing outward while at the same pushing my cock into my other hand to try and nub my prick into with or without lube, straight on or downward and other awkward positions usually with great care.

I will also use the other hand by putting a finger in my other hand that is doing the cock grip tonub into like cock docking. I've also tried pushing my cock into a cup which are usually not tall. It is really hard to do this without lube, but it is also very hard to do with lube, and I don't remember if I ever got off doing this, but to me is a very cock like torture way to get of depending on the length of one's cock. I've also gotten off pushing my cock into my laptop which sets on top of a keyboard desktop holder with boxer and short or panties I found no one was using in a package and shorts. Sometimes with a blanket between and without.

I've eated my cum several times. I've backed out many times though in shame, but wanted to so many times. One of the problems for me is a usually use lotion which makes eating my own sperm bad for me to do and it makes eating my cum taste bad which I 've done before and wasn't worth it. I've jizzed onto an orange I made an intent on to spunk onto to hold my cum into like a tiny bowl and then finished eating the orang.

I've also eaten a nugget of my own shit which was ver hard to do. It was so bitter

A lot of times I shoot for wearing out my penis, because there are 2 ways to shrink a cock. One use it ot lose it and or masturbate too much with a tight grip. I would love to be in chastity and be taken ou only to be given Cock like torcher and tight edging squeeze jobs and be put back into the tightest chastity I can fit into, that holds my prick from being able to get any blood into it at all. Even if that means getting a super small cock cage and putting a piece of cloth to keep my prick from expanding, but some how leaving a hole to be able to pee.

I dont havve money for a chastity cage and I have never had sex or a boyfriend or girlfriend. I am stuck with not being able to come out of the closet because I wouldn't be excepted as a family member under the roof I live under, but I try to help out around here and am very much needed here.

As I wrote before, I am also into Penis Enlargement. It's funny though. PE = Penis Enlargement and Physical Education and Premature Ejaculation. Several years ago I was into just Penis Enlargement and didn't know about Penis Shrinkage. Heck I didn't know about femdom and Maledom. And I was happy and it seemed like my cock might have been getting bigger. Either that or I pushed out the full potential for the top EQ(Erection Quality) I could get to at the tim, then bam!!!, I got curious and wanted to know if too much PE could shrink a cock rather than enlarge a cock. I found a PE website talking about a spiked chastity cage, so I search Google to find literotica femdom chastity cuckold stories for a few years or so. And I am not the reading type. Evenually I found Tumblr and then I found imagefap. I prefer captions to just seeing pictures under these catagories. Imagefap is the greatest for pictures. Ever since then I cannot make up my mind to whether I want to shrink my cock or enlarge my cock. But I have studied the heck out of both subjects through reading, videos and pictures, but without the money to back up either as well as a way to get products for either subject discreetly. So I have to stick to mostly manually for fun. Sometimes I get inventive to see what I can use to try either subject. I was able to get one of my older brothers to bring me to a sex shop with the little bit of money I had gathered(I am pretty frugal most of the time with money), so I got a vibrating dildo that is smaller and a bigger dildo, but not too big and some cock rings. Back when I was just doing PE and was getting the best results I had, I had 2 cock rings, one that was tight and one that was looser. I would warm up using the looser cock ring and then switch to the tight cock ring, and when I cock was too big for too long for me I would switch back to the loose cock ring. Since then those cocks rings broke. Somewhere I have the names of those cock rings. Since then I bought 2 new kinds of cock rings. One that is loose and one that is tight, but they just aren't as good as the other 2 cock rings I had.

I would love to just serve someone. Be someone's sex slave. Iwould rather be fucked in the ass than fuck someone in the ass, but I would very happy to fuck someonein the ass to return the favor. I as well would rather give a blowjob than get a blow job, but I would love to return the favor. This all seems funny to me, because usually it is the other way around.

I've had many great anal orgasms with my dildos as well as without my dildos, but I can save that for another blog, because I need to go soon.