i am a cocksucker. i love kissing and licking cocks, taking them in my mouth and sucking them, filling my mouth with hard cock. then swallowing all the lovely warm cum, filling my belly with my man's seed. While i am doing it i am dressed in pretty lacy bra and panties, stockings and heels. That makes me a cocksucking faggot sissy. Just reading the words makes me so wet.

i haven't been fucked yet. Nick wants to, but i'm too scared to let him go the full way. i am scared that it will hurt but mre that if i give in i know i will be changed forever, letting myself be fucked dressed as a girl, knowing that after he has finished i will have to pull up my panties and accept i am a girl.

i am now wearing panties, stocking and a bra under my male clothes into the office. The bra makes me feel so good, but it puts me at more risk of being caught out. The office manager, a pretty 50ish blonde woman, has been "accidently on purpose" touching my back i think trying to feel whether i have a bra on - so far i have moved each time so she hasn't been able to feel the strap. My mother says i should let her - tell my employers i am going to transition. But thats too big a step just now.

Not sure what to do. wish i could stop, know i can't.