Its 8:55 PM right now. My party starts around 10. I'm glad this place has net access. I needed some kind of distraction before I chicken out!!

Everything is set, I'm here in one of the two bedrooms. Its a nice little place. 2 bedrooms, bathroom with a big tub, and a kitchen/dining room/living room. Big windows in the front that look right out at the ocean.

I have my older friend here, hes like 26 or something. Works as a bouncer in the city. Hes here to make sure things don't get too far out of hand. And I have a friend of my brother's here. We hook up now and then, hes a couple years younger than I am. Hes actually the one that helped me set this up. I've been watching his texts coming in, a lot of people couldnt believe it was for real. But hes like ya, were at the cottage right now! Its on!

I'm pretty brave online. I talk about a lot of things and I probably come off as a huge slut. But the real life me is a lot different. I'm laying on this bed, writing this, keeping my mind off whats gonna happen in under an hour. Every once and a while I look up from the screen and we already have handcuffs and rope around the headboard to tie me down. Its feeling very real. Very very fucking intense. I'm scared. But I am gonna do it.

One more drink of vodka and lime and I need to go freshen up. That sounds funny, getting all cleaned up to get naked and be covered in sticky goo in like 45 mins. Haha. I do need to go and make sure everything is ready down there, I don't need any ummm anal related surprises for anyone lol.

Talk to you all later. Probably tomorrow when I get home, maybe tonight if I decide to go home after its done.

Happy Saturday!