Dear diary... I've done some things... Few people asked how my date went earlier this month and I dare to say I have something to tell you 

I think my date few weeks ago went much better then we thought. I _might_ have fallen in love with him and I have spent more time at his place than in my apartment during last two weeks.

I have noticed that he is pretty dominant and lives by traditional gender roles. Man is the head of the house and woman obeys him. And that's what it's been pretty much. I have cooked, cleaned and washed clothes BUT I don't mind. I actually like to do household chores when it's about someone else aswell instead of just me because at my place I really don't bother to clean my apartment few times a week or cook often. It's just meh :D I told him that after he told me that he doesn't want to hear complaints in his house. I think he approves because he said that I will be a great wife one day .>

Now, I know he seem pretty abusive and actually is if you consider it like that but as long as he's not violent or verbally abusive (outside of bedroom ), I'm willing to give it a shot. Not like I would clean and cook non-stop at home, and if it doesn't work, I can always move out. Me being submissive girl and he's dominant older man, isn't this like match made in heaven? :D

Maybe the strangest change will be that I will have to start wearing a ring. He's sort of religious too (not sure to which religious group he actually belongs to) and have told me that back in the day when he met his first wife, they knew eachother just for a month before they got married and moved in same house and same thing with his second wife. Not living under same roof until weddings. "It's sinful and shameful for man and woman to live together in same house out of wedlock and this is no exception BUT because the situation is different, 'just engagement' is acceptable because it is promise of marriage."

I find that weird to be honest, like... thats sinful but other things that happent aren't, like premarital sex? :D Well, I admit I find it exciting.. in a kinky way though. This year has been a rollercoaster since the beginning anyways. Really strange but good experiences so why stop now :D

I know there are haters and I've received some angry messages but excuse me for not meeting people randomly over a porn site even if you're closer to my age :D I like the persons, not the numbers of their age :D I'm not exactly a perfect rolemodel anyways :D

ps: not all older men are impotents with wrinkly limp penises.

pps: flu sucks!

ppps: Time for some online shopping for bridal lingerie and I don't even have to pay them myself